A letter to God..

Dear God;
I had a dream, when I had passed my intermediate examinations in 2003. But due to certain inappropriate decisions, I found myself going very far from the dream, I had. When I realized that I have gone a long way on a wrong path, and now, I could not return to the beginning, I started blaming myself for my failure. A feeling of guilt have choked my heart, and I started to ruin my time. 

The dream was related to become a scientist. Now, there is a opportunity in front of me, once again in my life.  And I am in the position to fulfill my dreams. I have good academic record, qualified GATE exam, published a number of scientific papers in various impact factor journals. What more in addition to this, anybody can wish from You to have in life? Yes, there is a lack of one thing, the so called fellowship. It is the one thing I don't have, and it's the only drawback in my resume.

On the 10th of july 2012, there will be  an interview in BHU, Varanasi for Ph.D. admissions. I have applied in that interview. Now I will have to face it.....
From this blog post, I am praying from You for my dream come true. As the science have also accepted Your existence (in a experiment in Geneva about the "God Particle") I am sure that You are really there and You are reading my blog. (as nobody else is interested in my life as well as in my blog).

So what do you think God; "Will my dream come true???"    
Kindly respond to this post please.......................I am waiting for your answer...

मेरी दुनिया;;

"जौनपुर का क्षितिज"

 नीलांचल, दूर क्षितिज ,

शीतल हवा और प्रकृति,

मीलों फैली हरियाली,

और उसमे उसकी अनुकृति.

कलरव कूजित पक्षी,

शांत अथाह समुन्दर, 

झील सी गहरी आँखे,

जिसमे डूबा मेरा मन.

निशा; तुम्हारे केश,

यह रूप-रंग, यह भेष,

कुछ तो है इनमे विशेष,

मैं खोया; नहीं कही कुछ शेष.

क्षितिज पे छाई लालिमा और,

तुम्हारे हांथों की मेहंदी,

बस एक तुम्हारी मुस्कान,

मेरी पुरे दिन की थकान .

जा रहा है पक्षी समूह,

और खो रहा उजियारा,

खो रहा है यह तेज,

और छा रहा अँधियारा.

जाते हुए से पल,

कितने सुन्दर लगते है.

खोये-खोये से हम,

कितने प्यारे  लगते है.

थक गया सा हूँ,

खुद में ही खो गया सा हूँ,

दुनिया की इस भीड़ में,

तनहा सा हो गया हूँ.

बेमतलब है यह प्रेमदिवस,

बेकार सी है यह दुनिया,

बोझिल सी थकी हुयी संध्या,

बोझिल ही मेरी दुनिया.

 जीतेन्द्र  गुप्ता 

nobody wants to talk to me;;

Yes; it's true. Nobody wants to talk to me. What happens to me? I could not figure it out. Is there something wrong with me or something wrong with anybody else????

the door of my room...

BTC Life..

Sunil, Me and Ashutosh

Sunil and Me..

PG days;;

a glimse of post graduate days of my life;; you can see Narendra, Me, Vineet, Rishabh, Satyam and Daisy;;

Missing graduation days...

Today, I was badly missing my graduation days, when I was a student in college. I was also the topper of my batch in my college. The photo I am pasting below, are the memories of those old days. You can see our  Principal sir in the first photograph, sitting on the chair. In the second photograph, Vijay and company is present. Apart from them Nandlal, Santosh, Arjun, Kamlesh, Santwana, Navneet and Ashish sir is also present in various photographs.

Really, those were the golden days of my life.......missing my graduation badly......